How to deal with death of grandma?

Mine died 1986 and I still am not over it! Just think that she is always watching and taking care of you. The wind that blows past your ear, shivers down your arms...............Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there, I do not sleep.I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on the snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain,I am the gentle Autumn's rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry, I am not there, I did not die...